Saturday, March 11, 2017

More uni drama

Hi Everyone

So more uni drama, but drama in a good way. I had a big think about what I wanted to do after I get my grad dip and a friend of mine (thanks Jan) gave me a suggestion. I realised just how many people were doing the library grad dip and it made me think of getting a job afterwards and how easy or hard it would be. Plus when I was reading my textbook, one of the first things it said was "if you're scared of people, don't become a librarian, get out now!", which was kinda dramatic in itself but that was another thing to consider, as I am afraid of people, I get freaked out easy in public.

In information services at my uni, there are two streams, Library Studies and Records Management & Archives. I have worked in records three times and it wasn't too bad. I was happy in the records room with all those files, the great way to hide I say. So... I have put in an application for the Grad Dip in Records Management and Archives. I will let you know how I go with that. The good thing though is I can get credit for the subject I'm doing now because it's part of the program. I'm excited though, there are only a handful of people in my class that want to work in archives and everyone else wants to be librarians. I don't think that bodes well for the amount of jobs out there. We'll see.

In other news back to see my dietitian and have joined a gym. I am at a dangerous weight, the one where I hate, even more so, how I look because I have put on a bit of weight. I don't like it and I need to do something about it now. The danger is that switch that goes off and then I drop it all. I feel it almost take hold a few times but I am at a normalish weight but not used to that. I'm worried I will just have that 'snap' moment and it all comes tumbling down. I'll keep you posted.

Take care and be kind to yourselves. I am trying to do the same.

Sarah xx

Thursday, March 2, 2017

Uni and the drama

Hi Guys

So this week has been dramatic. I've yelled, I've cried, I've laughed (thankfully) and had many more emotions. So... uni started back and I did my intro on the discussion board (I study online) and the unit coordinator emailed me to tell me I was in the wrong course. Of course I freaked out, who wouldn't. I had signed up for undergrad because I hadn't studied in years and I mentioned in my intro post that I had done undergrad and postgrad before, so she said I should be doing the Grad Dip in Information and Library Studies, not the undergrad Library and Corporate Information Management course.

So... then went back and forth for two days between the departments because I had been given bad advice to start with, even when they checked my credit application for recognition for prior learning, they still didn't pick it up that I should be in postgrad. In the end I couldn't do the full course because enrollments have closed for study period one. I am happy that I am in the same unit but the postgrad version of it and I will apply for the full course for the July intake. The only annoying this is that I only have access to the undergrad site right now and that will change tonight where I will lose complete access and then should have it back again Monday once everything has gone through.

All in all it turned out well considering that they didn't have to help me. It was because my tutor is also the coordinator of the course, as well as the unit, so they listened to her. Thankfully. She called me yesterday afternoon because I emailed her asking if I all else fails, should I completely withdraw and she was ringing to say yes and she was happy to hear the result. Oh well, all's well, that ends well, as they say ;)

Sarah xx

P.S. Please ignore any errors, I wrote this several times and it still sounded weird :-P

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

What I've been up to... besides trying to stay cool

Hi Guys

Sorry it's been a while. I haven't really been doing much except melting in the heat and waiting for uni to start next monday. Yay! What I have been doing though is having fun with a white hoodie, some sharpies and some rubbing alcohol. It's my new thing, Sharpie art! I was introduced to it by a lady that works where I live and it is way fun. Love it, though it is smelly work.

I got a white hoodie, some sharpies (I think the sharpies work better than generic permanent markers) and you draw whatever you want onto it, drip the clear alcohol onto it with an eyedropper or a spray gun and watch it run. I used really bright colours and it came out great I think. Then while wet I ironed it with baking paper between the inside of the hood and underneath it because the ink will come off a little onto the baking paper. So don't iron the hoodie without something over it or you will ruin your iron possibly.

Here's some pics.

Before the alcohol was dropped on

This is the same side, just round the other way

The other side

So now I have to wait for it to dry and then I will do the pocket on the front and each sleeve the same way. 

Okay, it's nearly 5am, so off to look for coffee ;)

Oh, one last thing, the ED is hitting me hard at the moment but I am okay. I am able to not indulge it but rather, just notice it, feel bloody uncomfortable and move on to the next round. I'll talk more on this next time. The sharpie art is something I can really focus on, not as a distraction but as a companion to the ED. I know that doesn't make sense but it does when you look at how we usually try and push the 'bad' stuff away and it keeps coming back, but what if we sat next to it and didn't let it hook us and just let it be. It has it's time then and it doesn't overwhelm so much. Food for thought, pardon the pun ;)

Okay, now for that coffee.

Sarah xx

Sunday, February 5, 2017

It's Sunday arvo, listening to music, feeling relaxed :)

Hi Guys

Music and Sunday afternoons go hand in hand. I'm listening to The Open Sea's Starlight. I love that song and the whole EP (Little Apple). It makes me feel really relaxed. Cali doesn't like music funnily enough. She gets all cranky and crabby at me. She especially hates me singing, lol, though I'm not a very good singer anyway, so she has a point.

Uni goes back into two weeks. I am really hanging out for it. I am SO bored lately. Though I am nervous too because I have never studied anything like this before and don't know if I'll be any good at it. I hope it will be okay but I'll guess we'll soon see. In any case I'll be sticking with it. I will just have to get used to it.

I really don't have a lot to say today. I just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive and kicking and doing okay.

Take special care

Sarah xx

Thursday, January 26, 2017

A few pics from the country and the beach -- finally

Tripod stealing carrots


Beautiful country

Love it

The long driveway

This little piggy was so cute

He used to get out for a run and chase me though, lol


Weird abstract

Like a little fairy path

Tiresome, ha ha

To mum's and the beach

Where I cut my foot -- still healing

Like a wave


Sarah xx

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Recovery, control or management

Hi Guys

I started to see my dietitian again yesterday and it as always brought a lot of stuff up. Lately, I've been struggling a lot with bingeing (don't worry, I am not restricting as well, just the bingeing) and it's been making me feel awful. They range from a minor binge to eating so much I feel like I'm going to burst. I have decided it's going to stop but gently. I am going to be checking in with myself when I eat to see if I am actually hungry (I'm having breakfast 2 or lunch 2 or you get it, lately) but doing it mindfully of course and I'll do a body scan to see how my body is feeling as well.

It got me thinking though. I always say, Oh, I am in recovery but if I was in recovery, I wouldn't continually have so many issues if I was. For it's always about control, always. Control the food, control the intake, control the binge etc etc. So I see for me that the issue is always going to be management. I have occasionally heard people say in jest, I wish I had an eating disorder. I say back, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Once it gets into your head, it will never go away completely, well mine doesn't and hasn't. It's been quieter at times but not silent. I wish I could silence it, that would be amazing.

Stay safe and well :)

Sarah xx

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Ten days

Hi Guys

So it's been ten days since my last post. I realised I had been neglecting my poor old blog so I am here to do a quick update. Quick because I am going upstairs to the kitchen today to do some cooking with Phyllis. She is pretty awesome. I don't know what we are making, muffins I think but I can't remember. I got the time wrong that I was even meeting her. I saw her before and said, see you at 1pm and came home and realised I had 2pm in my diary. So some things have changed since I last wrote on here. I have decided to go back to uni and to what I thought was finish my degree but then I realised that I wasn't happy with the course I was doing and so I changed, lucky that some of the subjects I had done will count. I had only done 6 anyway, luckily. So now I am going to do a BA in Librarianship and Corporate Information Management. Sounds so scary but it will give me an actual profession at the end. That is the part that I am happy about. Though some of the subjects sound really scary. I can finish it in four years, it's a double major and I would have a minor in writing because that is what all my previous subjects are in. I just thought I'd fly in here and tell you all the news and fly out again because I need to get ready, but it's sooooo hot here right now. We are having a heat wave here in my state/city OMG it's hot, poor Cali doesn't know what to do :(

I hope all of you in Oz are keeping cool and those of you elsewhere are keeping warm. Sleeping at night is really hard right now and I don't normally feel the heat, so it must be bloody hot .

Sarah xx

Sunday, January 8, 2017

Quick one - at Dad's place in the country

Hi Guys

Quick post to say I am still kicking and breathing. I am at my dad's property that he manages up at Bundaberg in Queensland, same state as me but I'm a city chick. Have a tonne of photos, so will post some when I get home tomorrow or maybe at my mum's place tonight. I have some news too, so will post that too. Anyway, this computer is really pissing me off, so I will catch you later.

Stay safe

Sarah xx

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Check it out!

Hi Guys (Again)

Check out my funky new template, the pic is one of my colouring in pics. So happy with it, except for that line that goes down the right side. Oh well, if that's all I have to complain about, I am doing pretty well.


Sarah xx