I have just been in hospital for a week to fix my medication after I was having some awful side effects of my medication. I had blurry vision, my legs and arms would twitch and jerk now and then, shaking in general, tripping, heavy sedation and just a really high anxiety. My doctor straight away change three drugs at once. I don't know whether that was a good idea because we won't know which one was doing it. I ended up going from 800mg of seroquel-XR to 600mg, from 20mg abilify to 15mg and splitting the dose of my lamictal into morning and night at 100mg morning and 125mg at night. It took a while and my anxiety was still really high on Thursday last week but it was slowly getting better, my shaking was just in my hands the jerking limbs settle, though I still do get it occasionally but usually just a twitch but my blurred vision stayed. On Wednesday I though to check it it was my glasses, which I had to get leave to go get as they were at home. I tested them and my vision was a bit better but still blurry, so I went on Friday to get an eye test. It turned out that my last optometrist got the axis of my astigmatism incorrect or it has changed and I also found out that the reading glasses he gave me, I don't need, as I can use the same glasses for both. I am getting my new pair sometimes this week, but it really helped with the anxiety and it pretty much went away when I knew what the blurry eyes were from. I saw Dr D yesterday and she was happy to let me go and I was happy to go home.
On Saturday I went and visited Andy and we had a really awesome day. We played board games and just chatted. I know that we will never be together that way again but I also know that I miss him so much when he is not around me. I don't like the drunken side but it doesn't happen alot these days, just now and then. I know it's still there but I do protect my heart. The fact of the matter is that I still love him so much and that is really hard. I don't know that that is going to go away anytime soon. Anyway, that is it from me for now. Hope you are all doing well and thanks you to those that still comment on my posts, I am really slack at reading as I just plain don't have the concentration these days. I used to read a book a week, now it takes me months. I think that's really sad. Oh well.
*hugs*
Sarah
4 comments:
I love playing board games! Used to play all the time. Now there is no one to play with. Sometimes Hunter and I play cards. But he doesn't seem to want to do so anymore.
Love never really ends. We just have to try to protect our hearts. Rely on ourselves instead of anyone else.
If your vison is still blurry after you get the new glasses....have your blood sugar checked on the rare chance you have IIDiabetes.
As always....I care. Very much.
I'm glad you're feeling better. I don't read as much as I used to either though since I got my iPad I've enjoyed a couple of ebooks. It's good you still have Andy in your life too. Hugs to you girl xx
Seroquel caused me to jerk and have muscle spasms so I was taken off of it and put on Abilify 5mg. That made the twitching stop. So I am glad they lowered the dose because the spasms could become permanent or so I am told. As for the love you still feel for Andy....all I can say is distance makes the heart grow fonder. I am so happy you are taking care of yourself. I was worried you were never going to post again. So good to hear from you girl!
I'm glad you're addressing the meds, they can mess you up if one isn't careful. I hope the housing issues work out for you. I'd jump at your mum's offer, that is if you get along. :)
Alk
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