Tuesday, August 26, 2014

She just looks lost

I was going through my photos on my computer this morning adding some pictures to my phone and I found this one of me taken in February 2011.

Me Feb 2011

I look at that girl's eyes and she looks so haunted and lost, anxious even. I want to give her a hug and tell her that although there are some dark days ahead, that things will get better, that they won't be this way forever. She may not believe me and I suspect that she wouldn't but I would have loved someone to tell me that back then. I remember those days were filled with paranoia, fear, hurt, betrayal and all those things would make anyone go where I went. I am glad all those dark things happened though and that might sound crazy but what I trying to say is that, through the dark comes the light, I believe that be the case for me anyway. I have had many dark times, but I have always had a light at the end of that bend. I'm very lucky. If I hadn't had those dark days back then, I would not be here now. Dov and I are about the celebrate next week our one and a half year anniversary. I am so excited.

I hope anyone that is struggling right now has some moments of peace on the horizon. My prayers go out to you!

Sarah xx

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Just checking in

I have been so bored lately having withdrawn from uni for study period 2 and it doesn't start again until the 1st September. I have been doing a lot of knitting and a lot of sleeping, just trying to keep on top of things. I have struggled a fair bit with the lack of brain stimulation but hey, it's only three and a half weeks away until I start back again and I am doing two subjects this time. I don't know if it will drive me mad or not, I hope not. I do have until the census date upon which I can withdraw without academic or financial penalty, which is in week three, I just hope I know by then whether I am sinking or swimming - sigh! There is no other news to report at this stage, which is pretty awesome. I'm glad I don't have any not so great things going on except boredom. I hope all is well with all of you out there! There is some good news actually. Cali has finally put on some weight, she has started to settle down and I think she finally knows she is home, is loved and is going to continue to be fed. It's so awesome to see my little kitty grow!

Sarah xx