Friday, July 15, 2016

Better than before

Hi Everyone

Well I'm over my little slip. If you haven't read the comments I spoke to my PT yesterday and confessed how I was feeling and we sat out in the freezing cold and she reminded me about nutrition and how much I need good nutrition. It's been a long time since I had that reminder and it's a good refresher but I am going to go back and see a dietitian just to get myself back on track.

I feel good today. I am going to the gym later on and have just been for a walk with my friend down by the river, it was really nice but really cold and came home to some warm oats. Anyway, off to have do some study. I have a paper due in a week and I want to get it done early.

Sarah xx

Thursday, July 14, 2016

I'll just call this 'ugh'

I'm struggling right now and I could say that it feels like I am right at the beginning of where my head was at the start of my blog and that's not a good place to be. At the same time however, it's a comfortable place to be, which is good, my head is telling me but bad, my body is telling me. It's too easy to fall into ED when you are feeling horrible and out of control and frankly this is control.

The worse/best part is that it's working and it's making me feel happy. I am terribly sorry to even post this, as all of you out there trying desperately hard to recover from an ED and then read this, well, that's really crappy of me. I guess it just shows how strong they (ED) can take a hold of you that quickly and it never goes away and I mean never goes away. I always think it has and then it comes back again. It's utterly ridiculous. There's nothing that can make this better and there's nothing else I can say.

Sarah xx